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[25 Jul 2006|11:24pm] |
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So, I was all "anti-Lj" but, whatever, I'm bored what the hell. No one will see it anyways.
So, my summer has been so busy. Ridiculously busy actually.
It's mainly consisted of the following three things.
-Working
-Horse Shows
-Taking care of my horse
Along with a couple vacations hee and there and hanging out with some friends.
Now, I love the barn, but that shit is staring to make me mad. Especially when the people there act like they are all so much better than you.
Not to mention that I haven't even really "been here" lately. I have been dreaming about this perfect life and how I wish things could be right now. I miss poeple from school to a degree. But at the same time, I want to get away because I can't express how much I hate high school. And I constantly keep thinking about shit that happened and shit that could happen. I just can't stop thinking. I've been so easy to piss off lately and being tired from working at 730 in the morning cant be helping. And I'm kinda irritated by people who have decided that I'm not worth talking to at the moment.
Damn, I need a vacation.
So, hows everyone doing?
I miss some of you.
I'm going to a horse show on Thursday - Sunday, but next week im free. (Cept for work)
Cell it.
586 651 0900
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| Haha. Fuck all those bastards.... |
[04 Jun 2006|10:12pm] |
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I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up and I'm alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I'm the first to know,
my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that's dead shall be re-grown,
and your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine.
Hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.
Any type of love - it will be shown,
like every single tree reach for the sky.
If you're gonna fall,
I'll let you know,
that I will pick you up
like you for I,
I felt this thing,
I can't replace.
Where everyone was working for this goal.
Where all the children left without a trace,
only to come back, as pure as gold,
To recite this all.
Hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.
Tonight,
hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.
Tonight,
hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
Hey, oh, here I am (do this with me),
and here we go, life's waiting to begin (do this with me).
Hey, oh, here I am (do this with me).
And here we go, life's waiting to begin,
life's waiting to begin.
So, yeah.
School's almost over.
And I'm basically busy the rest of the month. I can't wait for school to be over.
I have a horse whom I love to fucking death and I get to spend all summer with him.
But I'm so sick of people's immature drama and shit. It makes me mad.
And I really don't want a guy. I like my life the way it is.
Win - A - Gin (horse show) at the end of the month!!!!
KC in 5 days
And yeah, I love when people think that I don't see things that I do.
Oh, and someone else. You can delete comments, bur the email still gets sent.
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| This made my night. lmao. |
[06 Mar 2006|08:01pm] |
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[19:53] HiDdeNbEaUTy4859: ill probably get a stroke by the end of the night, you watch
[19:53] ClulessAngl: that's not helpin the headache any
[19:53] ClulessAngl: well, i hope u don't, but i'll visit u in the hospital if u do
[19:54] ClulessAngl: bring some PINK flowers
[19:54] HiDdeNbEaUTy4859: haha, good to know ill have at least one visitor
[19:54] ClulessAngl: u kno, ur favorite
[19:54] HiDdeNbEaUTy4859: u bring pink and ill drag my braindead ass out of bed and kill you
[19:55] ClulessAngl: lol
[19:55] ClulessAngl: well, at lest it will get u out of the coma
[19:55] HiDdeNbEaUTy4859: lmao
[19:55] HiDdeNbEaUTy4859: thats one way
[19:55] HiDdeNbEaUTy4859: and id laugh if i actually went into a coma, and you brought pink flowers and i woke up
[19:55] ClulessAngl: me too
[19:55] ClulessAngl: haha
[19:56] HiDdeNbEaUTy4859: wow, that would make my life
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| 2nd Semester Schedule |
[06 Jan 2006|11:46pm] |
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Here's my schedule for next semester...
Let me know if we have classes together or if you know anyone in them with me. =)
1. Honors Lit - Maloney
2. Pottery - Fischer
3. Spanish 2 - Proctor
4. Faith & Sacraments - Kline (yuk!)
B lunch
5. AP Euro - Valinski
6. Alg 2/ Trig - Schoenherr
7. Chemistry - West
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| Last few days have been pretty good. |
[01 Jan 2006|01:16am] |
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Happy New Year peeps!!
Anyways...
Thursday...
Cleaned, did a bit of shopping with mi madre. Then came home, showered
and went over my dearest Nicole's house. Then we went to the game. Ran
into Alex, so I hung with her and Katie for the game. It was actually
kinda boring and half the people left like, in the third period. I was
like, whatever. So then, I went home with Nicole and we went to Meijers
and got food. lol. Of course! Then went back to her house for a
sleepover. =) So, we exchanged gifts and I absolutely loved her gift.
Anyone out there have a gift duct taped shut and then wrapped??? Oh,
and can't forget the rubber bands. haha. I HAVE!! Man, that sucker was
hard to open. But it was worth it. Wow, I love her. Then we had
Mozerella sticks. Damn, they were good. But, I think I need to try
these Sams Clubs ones I've heard so much about. Then we were gonna
watch Saw, but we ended up just talking about...well, everything. I
love how I can talk to her about anything at the most random moments. I
can have the longest conversations with her and still have more to say.
Which is why I love her. We went to sleep and then woke up way late and
we were both so surprised. Then we ate, and my mother called and said
she wanted me home soonish. So, we couldn't watch Saw. *tear* =( But we
just talked and played with her pets. Which was fine with me. Yes, she
is awesome.
Then I came home and went to my lesson. Rode Famous. He was good. And
he was being round, like I asked him to be and I loved it. But it was
depressing to see Kota cause he gave me a hug and he let me hold his
head and he kept nuzzling my neck and I hate how he's not mine anymore.
I really miss him. And he's not crazy, contrary to popular belief. He's
like my horsey soul-mate. My Noah Calhoun....cept he's got four legs.
lmao. Ok, done talking about my four-legged boyfriend.
Well, its a New Year and I hope it's a good one.
Resolutions:
- Talk to 'Cody'
- Be more courageous
- Not worry so much
- Get back to being able to concentrating on school
- Get a horse
- Get a Golden Retriever
- Be more outgoing and approachable
- Be more flexible emotionally
- Get faster in swimming
Haha, what a list.
Peace.
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| The icon = what I want for xmas. |
[23 Dec 2005|10:22pm] |
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So, Christmas is in two days. You know
what weird....I don't care. It doesn't even feel like it. Doesn't even
feel like in two days I will have to hear my 9 year old brother
screaming about his gifts.
So, yeah. Had a lesson on Famous. It was ok. Then went to the game. Definately got tackled by Caitlin the
second I walked in the door. Because she just had to point out the
obvious to me...wow. Loser. lol.
Then, I went and got a Gatorade, talked to Katie and then went and
watched the game until Kim Napi came. Then went and hung with her the
rest of the time.
I must say, during the JV I got the weirdest freakin looks from someone. And do I know what it means, hell F***ing no.
Then, after the game. Definately weird. I definately felt like I was
inferior and invisible for a bit there. And I didn't really appreaciate
it. Especially since the only acknowlegement I got from the trio of
fags was a few glances from someone. Again, no clue what that would
mean. Oh, and the snide comment he made to something I said. Go ahead,
harass the people around me and just act like I'm fucking invisible.
Whatever.
Yeah, not feeling the joy of the season.
But, I love you guys. And, I am happy to have a freaking, much needed break from stupid school.
If you wanna hang.
The cell is: 586 651 0900
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! |
[17 Dec 2005|12:51pm] |
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Mucho ♥
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| Christmas!! |
[09 Dec 2005|01:46pm] |
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Ok, what do you all want for Christmas?!?!
And if you plan on getting me something, let me know so I can do the same!
Gracias.
Enjoy the Snow Day Foley people!
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| The truth is...I've never fallen so hard. </3 |
[07 Dec 2005|09:51pm] |
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Three words....
I. Am. Stupid.
You want to know more than that. Guess you just will have to talk to me. What a concept.
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| Learn to curse peeps. |
[18 Nov 2005|04:14pm] |
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After school was amusing. Extremely.
I just LOVE how people don't know how to insult a person properly. It's
amusing. People I hate are too scared of me to tell me their pissed to
my face. I find it funny.
Haha.
I love it.
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| I have such a way with words. =) |
[17 Nov 2005|03:54pm] |
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I love how everyone thinks I'm amazing and I'm everyone's hero now.
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| Do you want to know?? |
[15 Nov 2005|06:05am] |
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leave a comment with your name if you want to know what i really think
of you, and i'll reply and tell you. no lies, all honesty. post it in
your journal after i do yours so i can see the reverse.
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| So here I am alive at last, and I'll savor every moment of this |
[14 Nov 2005|03:13pm] |
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*evil laugh*
I love it when I know that I know I have completely moved on from a
past that I hated. Especially when things that are going on realting to
past events make me want to vomit. Along with other little things I see
happening around me.
Change of subject. Swimming. Leagues were this weekend, man, that was
fun. I'm kinda sad it's over now. But, I have decided that Matt and
Michelle are awesome coaches. I love them!! haha. Anyways, Friday I got
two best times in my events, and warming up with like, 200 girls was
freaking horrible, I was extremely irritated cause half those girls
there are little stuck up biatches. But, I got to see Mary Karina from
SLS, who I haven't seen in ages. It was amusing, because she barely
recognized me, but it was great to see her again. Afterwards, I stayed
and joked around with people for a bit, then went home to sleep and get
up again. Saturday, we had breakfast at the coaches house, which was
really good. We went to the pool and Me and Beth listened to our "Pump
it Up" music on the way there. We warmed up, but I wasn't swimming till
after diving, so I was a cheerleader. haha. Then we ate during diving
and the computers broke so we sat around forever, then warmed for 15
minutes again, and I was angry at one of the girls, so I had a really
good warm up and was pretty determined. Then, before I went to swim, I
talked to Michelle who convinced me I could prove myself wrong and I
was a good swimmer. So I stepped up to the block totally determined,
glared at the ND Prep girl next to me and dove in determined to beat
her. I felt fast the whole way, nailed my turn and was dead by the time
I reached the wall. After dragging myself out, Michelle comes running
at me saying that I had gotten a 29.9!! I had broken 30, my goal for
the season. I was one of 5 girls on the team to go under 30. Prior to
that swim, my best was a 31 something. She was right, I definately
proved myself wrong. So I was totally geeked about that. Then, my next
relay, I got another best time. So, yay.
Now, switch again. :-P
That whole accomplishing my goals thing made me more confident to do
something half of you have been nagging me to do. I've decided that
what's gonna happen is gonna happen. Nothing I can do about it. Can't
change the past, but I can try to mend some broken friendships. (All of
which invlove people currently going to Foley)
Here's what I'm going to live by - "Be honest with yourself about what
it is you want for who you are today, then tell him and let it ride.
Say it, then wait for his reaction. If he can't deal with it, his
problem. Find someone who can. But if you wait too long to explore the
truth, you've lied to yourself too many times already, and everyone
loses."
I'm done rambling now.
I'm out.
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| Listen to You Heart.....And Listen Closely.....It Whispers |
[06 Nov 2005|08:35pm] |
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So, this weekend pretty much kicked ass.
Friday - Got home, hung around a bit then went to practice. Then me and
Kim stopped to Starbucks on the way home. haha. That is our store. We
got frappachinos and were happy.
Saturday - Got up and did some cleaning. Boo. Then I went to the mall
with Kim and that was extremely amusing. I bought some stuff and we saw
Alex S. So we stopped to talk to her for a bit. Then Kim convinced her
mom to buy her a $55 jacket from Pac Sun while I trailed saying that it
wasn't fair. haha. Then I went home, watched a movie with the brother
that I actually like and we just hung out for the night.
Today - Got up and went to the mall with Amanda. (again) haha. I got
the jacket I wanted from Pac Sun, so I was happy. And we went and spent
all my money and then Amanda got some stuff while I browsed. Omg, I
haven't seen her in so long it was cool to hang out and talk. Then, we
went to the movies and saw Elizabethtown. OMG! Best movie EVER. I loved
it. But those stupid 7th graders next to us....grrrrr.....haha. Then I
came home and did homework. Fun. lol.
And tommorow. I have to somehow get the courage to do something.
Hopefully, Beth will make me so I have no way out. Cause, yes, I am a
coward.
I know he has no clue. And I wonder what he would say if he did. :/
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| For some reason this amused me... |
[04 Nov 2005|04:30pm] |
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Did u know? B4 u go to sleep at night there is 1 person of the opposite
sex thinking of u. They want you they want to kiss u, They want to be
with u they are always thinking about u b4 they go to sleep at night
they are longing to be with u. This is all true not a fake if u repost
this to in 5 mins the person that is longing to be with you will
approach you in a month and ask u out or grab u and snog the face off
u. But if you break thischain no1 will like u or ask u again for 5
years!!!
Post this in the next 200 seconds and you
WILL have
THE best day of your life THIS FRIDAY.
You're number one *love* Will either
kiss you,
ask you out,
or call you,
or text you,
or better.
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| New sn |
[30 Oct 2005|10:10pm] |
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Just so you know, my screen name is now
HiDdeNbEaUTy4859.
Im me. =)
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| I am a coward... |
[30 Oct 2005|08:44pm] |
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Holy shit. I'm a coward.
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